Getting my willy out in public

Hear this at Spoken.

Getting my willy out in public

Sharing your poetry is not unlike
Getting your willy out in public.
The reaction it garners is much the same,
couched in politeness or unrelenting disgust.
Loved ones might find something encouraging
to say, while strangers have permission to pass
unflattering review. That’s too long. It left me
unsatisfied. What’s the purpose of that weird
bit at the end? I don’t know.
These weird bits might not have any purpose,
except to stand before you, exposed
accepting that mine is different to yours
but what we have in common, we humans,
is flaws.

Getting my willy out in public

Semi-circles

Another poem you can hear at Spoken. I originally wrote this in 2007, and to be honest, I was never that keen on it. However, the subject matter suited what I wanted to try and do on the recording, which was to use an Audionautix track as a music bed for the piece.

Semi-circles

I walk in semi-circles, clockwise
Until the link of an arm changes
My trajectory, counter-clockwise
Until the link of an arm changes
My trajectory. Walking in this way
Will eventually see us linking arms:

Our looped steps, our brief tango,
Our waltz in opposite directions
Will be brief. Will we acknowledge
One another, remember we were
Supposed to link, or will we think
This is just another incomplete
Semi-circle?

               We step in unison
In opposite directions, we move,
We look into each others eyes
And we realise that together we
Have indeed completed a circle
With this fox-trot, this pirouette
With this, our only revolution.

Until the link of an unwanted arm
Changes my trajectory once more
My arm, my eyes, my semi-circles
Will meet others, the dance carries
Me away and every other circle
Can never seem so complete.

Semicircles cover art

Semi-circles

Rescue Poem

Hear this at Spoken. I have been enjoying trying out Spoken.co and am finding that it really fuels my wanting to write.

Rescue Poem

The wounded poem was found crawling
into that dark space between the oak
and the alleyway. With barely enough strength
to fight off the advancing pack of smutty
Limericks that rule this part of town,
it tried to utter some plosive alliteration –
“Be bold! They can but bury beauty!”
– but the consonants died unformed
on its fish-out-of-water lips.
Had it not been for the earnest youth
that took it home swaddled in damp
similes, the poem may not have survived the night.
She listened closely to the heartbeat,
that was a mess of anapests and weak spondees,
with the care of a watchmaker, resisting
the urge to turn feeble ticks into driving tickity-tocks,
to let the lines linger a little longer, and in the dawn
it managed to keep down an original metaphor,
growing stronger, it started to look less like a ditty
scrawled on a bathroom wall, and with renewed dignity
began to stand for something, and could sound
its own clarion call, to take a drastic measure,
to write something – anything at all –
between the next line break and the caesura
urging other earnest youths to rescue those that fall.

Rescue Poem

Really excited by online learning: Update on MTeach

I’ve finished the first round of subjects for the MTeach and while there was a mix of feelings throughout the process, generally speaking I’m really happy with how the course is panning out.

The newest subject we’re starting, though, really embraces the potential for this style of learning. I was just reading about the importance of designing educational experiences rather than planning lessons (i.e. to adopt a heuristic rather than algorithmic approach to teaching and learning), and I was thinking about how insightful that was, when my new ‘lecturer’ published our subject with the explanation that he has used a non-algorithmic approach to the subject. I was immediately impressed and the timing of this revelation was incredibly serendipitous. Note: Read chapter 3 of Phillip Schlechty’s Engaging Students for more on design versus planning.

So I have jumped into the next subject with both feet and the only problem I have had so far is that I have too many ideas for the assessments. My key idea is to challenge the effect and place of traditional assessment strategies in the face of 21st Century learning goals. I have big ideas about this, but it may be too ambitious. Having too many ideas is a wonderful problem to have, though.

The other downside of this subject is that it has revealed to me how ineffective I have been in my attempts to integrate technology in the classroom. I’m being a little hard on myself, since I’ve had some real successes, but seeing my new teacher use technology is a real wake-up call to how well and professionally it can be done.

On the one hand, the ad hoc approach to using innovative technology means that you invest a minimal amount of effort to get it up and running so you can evaluate it. This means if it fails you have not wasted too much effort. However, this teacher has gone all in: professionally produced video materials, customised design of the LMS experience to suit the needs of the subject (no mean feat in Moodle!), integration of a range of embedded tools, and a commitment to nano-fora to foster collaboration and discussion. And this was all ready to go before the course officially started. So if this fails, this teacher will lose a lot of that investment of time. But, why would it fail? It is expertly done. It is a joy to engage with. As an online student, I have never been more comfortable within an online learning space and felt that my needs and interests were being met in such a robust and personalized way. It embraces the rhizomatic approach to learning, but provides excellent structure and signposting so that learners do not get lost.

Absolutely phenomenal.

Really excited by online learning: Update on MTeach

Ted Hughes’ ‘The Jaguar’, as re-imagined by a male feminist, in the style of Scroobius Pip

A little break from education-related posting. I have been teaching a lovely class of year 7 girls about poetry while on placement, and revisited an old favourite of mine with them: The Jaguar, by Ted Hughes. I’ve also been listening to Scroobius Pip’s album Distraction Pieces and generally thinking a lot about feminism recently. Somehow, while waiting at the traffic lights this morning this started forming in my head, because thought-foxes don’t only strike on quiet, snowy evenings. Anyway – I have nothing else to do with it…so here it is (You can also hear it at Spoken):

Ted Hughes’ ‘The Jaguar’, as re-imagined by a male feminist, in the style of Scroobius Pip

The apes adore themselves and in the sun they think of breeding
While uncritically consuming, without question, fleas the media
Puts on them: keep on scratching; don’t start thinking; keep on shrieking —
While the alpha dogs keep lying to their minds that keep on sleeping

There are champions in digital high definition streams
Saving people, crushing evil, swinging heroes, screen to screen
Standing for the little man, the lovely little ladies cry,
Half our dreams are brought to life, the better half are raped or die

Iron John McClane is beating on his hollow, tinny chest
In a loin cloth in the forest chanting “Father Must Know Best!”
But the jaguar is stalking and has set her sights on prey
And will devour foil hat prophets who are standing in her way

Under her foot the world still turns, not by her power only
But because it must, and change will come, we just don’t want it slowly
The rising of the jaguar won’t mean the sinking of the Ark
Containing sons of other beasts, left cowering in the dark

The cage long busted open but we sit behind the bars
Idly spouting archetypes about them: Lovely Venus, Warlike Mars
Jaguar will not be bound by cosmic nonsense or be told
That half the world’s not owed to her: it’s not for others to withhold.

Ted Hughes’ ‘The Jaguar’, as re-imagined by a male feminist, in the style of Scroobius Pip

A Flipped Perspective – A Teacher’s Fledgling Experiences with Online Learning as the Learner

I should say from the outset, that this isn’t about Flipped Learning™ as understood by most educators, but I couldn’t resist the reference to it as a catchy title!

So, entitled sense of rage aside, I am currently enrolled in an education course that is taught primarily online. I find this particularly interesting, since in my previous life as a Learning Technologies Coordinator in a Victorian high school I took a keen interest in the possibilities the online space afforded learners. I had lots of theories about how engaged and self-motivated learners would be when given the opportunity to work at their own pace with online material, rather than having to go at the pace of the lessons planned by a teacher, or at the pace of the slower learners in their cohort. Now I am the learner it is great to see it work out in practice.

I think it does have the potential to work well. My course is offered in the ‘blended’ mode, which means we have short, face-to-face intensives, synchronous online workshops, and asynchronous learning modules, made up of readings, video clips and discussion forums we are expected to participate in. As this is a Master’s degree, we also have access to academic journals and books, mostly available online or through the bricks-and-mortar library. So all of the elements we need for our learning are available for us, pretty much whenever we need it. There is also a number of Facebook groups that popped up, which was a student led initiative, to connect people training in the same teaching methods, and one for all those enrolled in the course. Even our assignments are offered in a differentiated, highly engaging and technology rich way. I was surprised to learn that for my Master’s degree I would be submitting multi-modal, multimedia mash-ups for some of my actual, graded coursework. I’m quite enthused by this, as it really ‘walks the talk’ of modern education theory. The schools I have worked in are yet to have the real freedom to do this for ‘serious’ assignments, like year 12 English SACS, for example, because ultimately it doesn’t look like the final exam and so is not trusted as adequate preparation for the final assessment. But I digress. In short, everything I would expect from a well organised teaching team and a well motivated student cohort is in place.

There are aspects that are already working well. This is the first time the university has run this particular course, so there are a few creases to be ironed out as they launch everything and try to engage us in these methods for the first time, but there is a lot that is a success.

Firstly, many students have really engaged with the ‘suggested’ learning activities. These are things we are not graded on, but they are designed to guide our learning and point us in the right direction. My experience with junior kids in the classroom is often that if something is not ‘on the report’ they tend to have very low motivation to do it. Obviously, you try many things to overcome that initial feeling, but it has been the ‘default setting’ of many of the kids I’ve taught. I guess most Master’s students, particularly Master’s students training to become educators themselves, are more intrinsically motivated to complete these optional learning tasks.

The asynchronous aspect of it is a real benefit as well. I get emails every time someone posts to the forums, and some of those emails are coming in a 12am or 3am! Absolutely crazy times, but times that for whatever reason obviously suit those particular students. I did experience this with senior students in the classroom, too, but it was more alarming to see a 4am submission to our class blog than these MTEACH students doing it, because my kids had class with me the next day and trying to teach them when they’ve pulled an all-nighter to meet their blog post quota was a nightmare. I had one kid that would literally have to sleep in class because of the way he worked through the night on his assignments. I don’t think that’s what Flipped Learning™ is supposed to look like.

I’ve noticed a number of frustrations bubble up as we’ve entered into this method of learning as well, though, and it would be remiss of me to ignore them.

Many of the students are super-engaged. I’m one of them. We were accessing the LMS (Moodle…*shiver*) before the commencement of the course and during the first week of face-to-face lectures hoping to get access to all of the material so we could dive in with our studies. This simply wasn’t available. There was an unspoken expectation on our part that we could learn at our own pace, and we intended that pace to be fast, furious and starting right now. The lecturers had an unspoken expectation that we would commence with the online studies after the intensive. In fact, some of the online modules for week one were still not completely uploaded and usable yesterday. This seems like a small point, but it’s worth considering that your most motivated students will demand access to everything and if you don’t intend to make that available, you should communicate that clearly up front. There were a number of forum posts along the lines of people feeling in the dark about what was going on. Like I said, this is the first time this course has been delivered, and this is just one of those ‘creases’, but the take away for me has been that when students are asked to engage with material online, it may cause some confusion and fear, and timely communication that anticipates their needs is crucial to keeping them onside.

Another issue is that, as I just intimated, there is some fear and confusion coming from some students. This is the first time many of us have had to learn this way, and as it is such an alien experience to many they want to be reassured that they are capable. There have been some follow-up offers of assistance in response to some of these issues from the lecturers, but I think in future versions of the course they’d be better prepared to meet that kind of resistance face on at the beginning.

The final issue that I’ve noticed is that a great number of the students have not yet engaged with any of the discussion material online. Now, obviously there could be a great many reasons for this. We all signed up for the online model of the course presumably because we needed the flexibility it afforded, so many of the students simply may not be available to participate yet. Students may also be working more strategically, diving into the material in unseen ways, doing the readings and simply ignoring everything that isn’t direct work towards the assignments. I get that. In fact, I wish that was the approach I was taking, but I have been so immersed in the theory surrounding this method of learning for so long now, I can’t help but get engaged in the slower, more discussion based methods – even though I have 9 years of experience and literally nothing that we have covered yet has been new information to me! Whatever the reason, though, I think the lecturers would likely have mixed feelings about the levels of engagement, and there must be some students for whom there are more negative reasons, be that laziness, difficulty in motivating oneself, or simply struggling to manage the workload without feeling overwhelmed.

I’m excited by the course at the moment, but mainly because it feels like a huge experiment in online learning from my perspective. I will, no doubt, offer more analysis of this as the months progress.

A Flipped Perspective – A Teacher’s Fledgling Experiences with Online Learning as the Learner

Back to basics – when good ain’t good enough

Ok, first things first: I think I am a bloody good teacher. I don’t mean to brag, but I have grown a lot over my years in teaching. I am reflective, critically engaged, creative, passionate, dedicated to improvement and all those other good things that you want in your teachers.

You might not even know what you want in your teachers, but I do, and trust me, I have made it my business to figure out what makes a good teacher and to do those things to become one.

Now, I might not be a great teacher. I will cede that. I’m not so big-headed to believe that there is nothing you can teach me about teaching. I’ve been teaching for 9 years, which means I survived the 5 year black hole that half of my colleagues get sucked in to, and I think that counts for something. In those 9 years I have even achieved the ambitions I set my self quicker than I thought I could.

So why am I bringing this up? Well, my teacher training from the UK was through a course known as the Graduate Teacher Programme (GTP). It’s a pretty tough course. You get thrown in at the deep end of teaching, with a reduced timetable, from day 1. Sure, there’s a crash course in planning and behaviour management, but essentially you learn the job by doing the job. You still get the theory of the more traditional PGCE though after-hours sessions, although admittedly without having to write the academic papers to prove it, and you get a year’s teaching experience under a dedicated mentor. I think there are some issues with the GTP, but it really does produce some much more skilled graduates, in my opinion.

However, something I learned early on in my life here in Australia is that the GTP does not travel well. Since it is run in collaboration between Local Education Authorities and high-schools, it never passes through the esteemed gates of the academy. You don’t get a University issued qualification. You get a qualification that recognises your right to teach in England, but not an academic transcript that you can show anyone in other countries.

The Victorian Institute for Teachers (VIT) doesn’t recognise my qualifications or experience. Even the 6 years of experience of teaching in this country…but I am resigned to that now. I’ve had all the arguments with all of the reps and the resolution is simple: I am going to have to go back to the start and get proper Aussie qualifications.

So I am enrolled in an MTEACH, which seems like a fancied up version of the Grad. Dip. in Education. Really, I think they have just extended the duration and called it a Masters so that we will end up like Finland. Everybody in education is obsessed with Finland.

I have mixed feelings. (About the need for me to study, not Finland. The Fins are currently teaching me Java for free. I love Finland!)

On the one hand: this stinks. I have sat in on lectures where I have been taught about internet browser tabs, and academics are going to teach me how to write lesson plans, and at some point there is probably a session on sucking eggs.

But on the other hand, I am still a good, reflective, critically engaged teacher. I have access to online academic journals, for 18 months. I have decided to suck up my bad attitude towards this whole process (and believe me, I’m pretty dark about the VIT right now), and I will make the best of it. I have time and permission to bone up on theory without having to juggle 3 year 12 classes and parents and meetings and red-tape. I may not like that I HAVE to do this, but I do quite like that I CAN do it.

Sure, I’d rather not pay through the nose for the privilege, but it is what it is…

So the upshot is this: I will spend the next 18 months going back to basics so I can get registered, but I’ll also use my time wisely to actually get something out of this for me.

Back to basics – when good ain’t good enough